i like this, i've a new place but nobody's ever going to know it exists. sometimes life's not what it seems. and you've to make decisions you never thought you'd make.

Back here cause it doesn't suck here

i've decided to move back here. primarily because nobody knows this page exists anymore. and thats the way i like it. For now. For this moment.

i've had enough of exihibitionism. FB is possibly the biggest pile of nonsence the human race has come to embrace. ever.


Well, we're back for myself.

It seems that after one year away from Brisbane, the exact same things i tried to run away from, took form in a similar fashion. just in a different place.

Getting burnt out. Does the system even work. People parading a series of symphathetic views. Sincerity, not. Wasted time and pointless mismatches. Results over the means. Irrational faith in the incapable. Rampant thoughts for the circumstances. Betrayal on a daily basis. A deceitful heart for a people to bend. But worst of all, them being more true to us than ourselves.

No one really cares. No one really gives a damn.


i hate not being myself. but i'm just being the crowd.


the crowd of normal.



i've come to attain a severe disdain for the human spirit. when i really shouldn't.

why?

because it goes against my principles.

what?


sometimes i feel that the closest people i know are the ones least worth my time.


ouch.

Mrt to airport

The ride to the airport frm kembagan is super duper excruciatingly long.....

Arghg!!!

Jz.

Stoked..

Strong rumours of jay-z and kiss headlining ss2010

Esp for jay-z

Not too long from now..

bleepbleep.

me, mum and sis are going now to monster-ssori to sign up my nephew for kindergarten

monster-ssori - for monsters. by monsters.

ss2010. here i come!

I just happened by some freak accident, managed to access the summer sonic 2010 website.

everything's still "comin soon".. cept the line-up page

lineup release date 15.3.2010





=)


prayin' for some metal lovin'!

(that is, i hope whats in japanese reads 1st line-up release 15.3)

Absolutely and completely.

Shatter me with Hope

The girl who cried love, won't you come and play with me
You can be Cassandra, underneath the sword of Damacles
We'll tear this baby apart wise like Solomon
run, come shatter me now
Shatter me with hope
Crawl, come breathe me in, bleed out all sorrow
Scream me a dream, untouched by shadows
Baby, shatter me now, shatter me now
Shatter me with hope

She'll be the witness to the repose of Evelyn
Push the needle in
To the canticles of ecstasy
Turn to page forty three
And you'll know how I feel

Run, come shatter me now, shatter me with hope
Crawl come breathe me in, bleed out all sorrow
Scream me a dream, untouched by shadows
Baby, shatter me now, shatter me now
shatter me with hope

Swear on your hearts grave I'm wrong
and love like your life's depending on it
cause it is!

We'll tear this baby apart, wise like Solomon
Turn to page forty three, and you'll know how I feel

Run, come shatter me now, shatter me with hope
Crawl, come breathe me in
Bleed out all sorrow
Scream me a dream, untouched by shadows
Baby, shatter me now, shatter me now
shatter me with hope
Shatter me now, shatter me now, shatter me now
hope
Shatter me now shatter me now shatter me now
hope, hope
Scream me a dream
(Shatter me now shatter me now shatter me now)
Scream me a dream
(Shatter me now, shatter me now, shatter me now)

hokay.

i'm slowly recovering from therapy.

i hope the lower freqeuency of these pain moments mean that im doing better.

i'm giving in only because its not my fight that i've been fighting.

It's not the same anymore.

come september, the 2nd line of The Actor wouldn't be so true for me anymore..


I hope.

Booms.

Slipping in. Let's go listen to some of edward's songs of the moment. yea

don't worry, only two metal songs. im getting soft. oh but please, listen to the shining song. band of the moment man. freakin awesome stuff..



Biffy Clyro - Mountains



Shining - Fisheye



Shrinebuilder - Pyramid of the moon



Bryan Adams - Please forgive me (this is a totally retarded song, but its nice)



Michael Buble - I Just Haven't Met you yet

And I just want to believe that too..

Zzzzz..

Help

.. Just three more days

Not who I used to be.

Oh, the simpler times of yesteryear.

Being born gentle leaves a bitter aftertaste.

Less bitter than when I have to face half of your heart that can't decide.

What I thought was set in stone turned out to be a fool. A fool who notices his foolishness. Yet lacking in his capacity to grasp his own intricacies in trying to figure his livihood. Leaving nothing left of the man, except the dust that was meant as the stone holding what he figured was everything, down.

Confusing me.

Sometimes even if it's special, it doesn't mean it's special.

Woot.

He's back!

On the taxi home.

Actually I'm jaded because I'm constantly trying to catch that snow flake in the air that always melts before you can savour it. And reappears in the air just so that I can try catching it again.

And I just keep chasing that fleeting moment without cause, so that I will hopefully in the end capture a snowflake which doesn't melt.

Which by the way is darn near impossible, yet I've always had enough hope to dream that little dream.

I'm really lost in a sea of a pea.

Actually, I might actually just be lost. Period.